Why am I here?

Who am I?

My name is Lizzie, and I’m a mom to three of the greatest kids I know!  Doesn’t every mom know that!

I was bopping through life, quite amazed that I had managed to skip through the “dreaded teen years” of raising these people, pretty much unscathed.

My oldest truly spoiled me, as far as raising children was concerned.  He was the perfect child.  Good grades, no trouble in school, off to college.  Where we thought all was well.  Until we received a letter after the Fall semester of what would have been his senior year.  Academic probation.

The events that lead to that bombshell and have unfolded since are the stuff of some strange movie, and include car crashes, drinking, DUIs, depression, and ultimately a diagnosis of Aspergers.

 

Why am I here?

I started writing things down so I could remember the details of the events I was living.  I can hardly believe that they are all true, and were revealed in little over an 18 month period.  I have a feeling I’m not alone in the realization that the kids aren’t perfect. My little journal does much to keep me straight as I try to talk to others about what has happened.  It’s very hard to talk to people about these things, I get so confused about what’s been said, who knows what, am I repeating myself?

I started blogging as a way to have a conversation with myself.  To read about this life from a stranger’s perspective.  Maybe I could give myself some sage advice, as if I wasn’t involved at all.

My hope is that there are other parents out there that can relate, maybe assure me that it’s going to be alright, maybe I can help another mom realize she hasn’t done anything wrong either.

In the meantime, I’m still waiting for the perfect ending to this movie.  We all live happily ever after, right?